"I wake up with anxiety. I go to sleep with anxiety. If I didn't feel anxious, I'd be worried." Ruan has lived with anxiety for most of his 66 years. He says it's not his friend, but it's always by his side. He doesn't suffer from anxiety, but has learned to live with it. Constantly. In this little book, he takes us on a light-hearted A-Z journey of what makes him feel anxious and how he has learned to deal with it. He says it's not a self-help book, but hopes that anyone reading his wise words, and who feels a bit like him, will gain some sort of comfort from them. And realise that they are not alone. Far from it, in fact. "It takes a mind both brilliant and restless to feel the world so deeply. This book works because it's written by Ruan who knows that anxiety and creativity often share the same heartbeat." Mary Portas OBE "A warm balmy bath of empathy, with a smile." Helen Lederer