What drives a person to continually cross boundaries, whether they be geographical, cultural or personal? In this book, Heinz Strubenhoff recounts a life spent between Germany, Africa and Eastern Europe, experiencing international development cooperation first-hand, witnessing its ideals, successes and contradictions. Drawing on his time in Togo, Ukraine, Moldova and Ethiopia, he reflects critically on the meaning, impact and future of development aid, combining personal experiences with this reflection. He writes openly about doubts, mistakes and formative encounters. Historic upheavals such as the fall of the Berlin Wall, the Maidan Revolution and the war in Ukraine provide the backdrop to his fascinating life story. An autobiographical search for answers – for responsibility, for effective international cooperation, and for what we are really seeking in foreign lands.